seriously.
today was great. i was such in a high mood thruout the day. i luv ijc.
...till i got home. wat the hell sey. communication breakdown issit.? how come everyone else in my CG seems to noe tt we're expected to complete the whole assignment by tmr's Maths Tutorial.? n i noe NUTS abt it.??
im hating h2 maths rite now okay. im so totally entirely fully lost. i ruined amaths at sec4 so badly. tt now im drowning. I HATE FUNCTIONS.
and i hate not knowing how to use the super expensive GC. it cost sooo much, have alllll the apps u can tink of, yet ubberly complicated n NON-user frenly! URGH.
practically stared hard at tt blardy assignment for an hour, and all i managed was question ONE.
im soooo frustrated! im soooo pissed! im soooo drained! I HATE H2 MATHS.
now, dun say tt u told me so. i noe u're not in favour wif the decisions i made. but reali. stop tormenting me for it. its reali not any better elsewhere, n u're not helping.
god. how come i suddenly feel like giving it all up. the cca, the ppl, the jc, the education itself. andd the life. god. why did i even bother in the first place.? aights, i noe i cant. at least not halfway thru. im not like dat. pls, munirah, remember tat.
whatever lah ehhh. my stomach needs food now. for my blardy slow brain to function. tink im mugging thru the night. i want that assignment completed. i dun even noe why im so worked out about jc studies rite now. when pple keep telling me tat 3mths course is for fun.
i simply dun see what all the fun is about when at the end of the day, u'll struggle thru ur education. i regret my upper sec life, wholeheartedly. i shud haf tried harder. i noe i can do better, i cud haf done better. if onli i was more aware then, of where tis is heading. chicken fish mcnugget lah.
wads done is done. i ought to stop saying shud or cud or ifs. but i can say chicken fish mcnugget lah.
*i almost always pick the worst time,
to haf the best moments.
so hu's fault is it now that u're regretting it all.?
urself lah, moron.*